The Days are Long

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Last week I had to go to the curriculum open house night for Zain at his middle school.  This is a new school for Zain as he’s just started 6th grade.

A middle schooler.

This is the same little guy that came into this world without a sound, and his eyes wide open.

Which seems like yesterday.

No really…like yesterday.

Mind you, he’s been alive for nearly 4,400 days and I’ll be honest, many of the details have slipped away—as I’ve definitely hit the age where I am operating on a one in, three out situation.  But to say that I can easily conjure up the sights, smells (not all pleasant) and the sounds of his sweet voice from each stage of his life is not an understatement.

So as I walked from the truck to the front door I was this close to losing it.

How did we get here?

How is it possible for him to be a phone toting, after school staying, laptop carrying tween?

I say so often that the days are long, but the years are short.  And I believe it now more than ever.

It’s times like these that I could easily go to the place of—“I should have…”

…spent more time…

…taught him…

…taken him to…

But that isn’t going to bring back the little guy that I savor in my flashback memories served daily from Facebook.

It’s noticing moments like these when I really recognize how fast time goes, and makes me resolve to enjoy, not just the milestones, but the every day.  I’m famous for saying, “hurry up”–it seems like we are always needing to be moving ahead—at a hurried clip.  And by the end of the day, I’m worn out.

But all of those hurried moments, and dragging days add up to a lightning fast year.  I only have 7 more school years until he goes to college.

And just as I typed that, I’ve lost it again.

So if you are reading this and have rolled your eyes at the elder in the grocery store who has said, “Oh honey, enjoy them while they are young.  They will be gone before you know it.”

Stop it.  She’s absolutely right and it sucks!

We live a series of seasons and while this one may seem exhausting, it’s so worth it.  Don’t wish it away.

Savor the days, as the years are infinitely short.

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  1. Kim Bears

    Love this! I forgot how much Mir looks like him. I love your boys. 🙂
    And yes, you are absolutely right. I’ve barely been able to get through the last few weeks after dropping off my youngest son at college. I keep seeing him lying in my arms and just looking him in the eyes and wishing this moment will never end. It does…and yes, it sucks. 🙁

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